39 dairy

tomorrow is the day..

today is suppose to be the big day..

but he cancel it for last minute..

frustrated?

ya..

upset?

ya...

feel unappreciated?

yup..totally...

i know its not the right place to talk about relationship..

i really2 in to it when he said he'll coming to get me..

but 

hurm..its so..hurm idk..

we having fight again

right now..

hurmm..

i just dont get it..

im not blaming him for this..

im just trying to get him understand that im so jealous..

im so sorry if you get it in wrong way..

i just..

hurm..

i just think that you should know im just jealous..

thanks for understanding..

thanks..

38 dairy...

i lost my count!..

how much months already? 

ngeh2...

i think its about 4 months now..

yup...4 month..

hehe..

may the show completely success!..

btw...

u have promise me something!..

and i want it!..

must match with my shoe (i just bought it)

hehehe..

how lucky am i to have you!..

i really lucky...

sometime...i dont..

seriously when you not texting me back!..

hahaha..

its okay..

i know what u do!..

but remember..

i love you n miss you so much!!

37 dairy...

today...i bought boo a shirt...

so...

im so damn happy bout it..

but after i being told that he got sponsor by everlast b'coz tmrw show!..

im feeling down!...

so hahahha

nvr mind...

hehehe...

2 brand new shirt n 2 brand new shoe from everlast..

how lucky...

i wish i get one...hehehe...

36 dairy..

oh well..

this situation will be continued until we meet...

wuahahahaha..(evil's laugh)

sorry dear...

its not because im angry or anything...

im just wanna show u how much i hate to be mature...

its so not fun at all...

im just wanna be me..

a childish old girl!..

hehehe...

sorry dear if im hurtg ur heart...

sorry..

i'm counting the days honey!..

35 dairy

what is going on here...

not really understand the situation..

keep struggling with my love life...

i wonder how people can work it out like my sister...

she and her bf been in a relationship around 4 to 5 years..

at least she found her true love...

instead of me and my bro...

what on earth that i mumbling about..

hehehe...

its okay..

im just stress out right now..

be a good boy boo!..

hehehe

me heart you no matter hat happen..

im happy if you happy...

34 dairy

i got fever after baby boo..

great..

but still feel dizzy..

its all boo fault..gahahaha

yup..

he started it!...

gehehehe..

33 dairy

only one week left...

cant wait to see you...

i got call from you last night..

aargghhh i miss you so much!...

i wanna be by your side...

and if i could fly

i'll never wait any second to be with you..

32 dairy..

boo! 

i miss you so much!..

why didnt you text me about going to practice?

ermm..

never mind..

i just go to bed now..

i think..

be careful okay..

u are not 100% feeling well yet!...

i love you baby boo!

31 dairy

baby boo got fever!..

sorry!

 im not there to take care of you..

please get well soon sayang..

eat your medicine okay

just get some rest..

i miss you so much...

take care..

i love you baby boo!

sincerely;

baby bie

30 dairy..

MilesBy Sonya Hernandez

Miles and miles and miles apart.
Although so far you've touched my heart.
Your laugh, your voice, your adoring smile,
Seem to shorten every mile.

I wake every morning and rest at night,
my thoughts and dreams filled with your sight.
Oh how I wish, even for one night,
I could lay in your arms and you hold me tight.
Not just a little briused or battered,

When I think of the distance it's completely shattered.
We'll never give up or say goodbye.
Remember together, the moon in the sky.
Your heart's a part of me and mine of you.
With that alone, we shall not be blue.

29 dairy..

i have a rough day today..

i need my baby boo!..

i wanna cry..

please help me baby boo..

28 dairy..

our's dairy blog should be 100 something..

but..

we skip a lots of time..

hehehe

okay..

for the rest of my weekend...

im not going to heard anything from boo..

maybe just a few of it...

he's got some work to do with rks crew..

ermm..

and i would be left alone here..

hahaha..

its gonna be fine baby boo..

im stronger than yesterday..

lol...

and the most important thing is..

i miss you so d**n much!..

boo (ckp jgn mencarut)

hehehe

27 dairy..

already gone...

not gone GONE FOREVER..

u just gone and work out and do some training..

you know what sayg..

i really miss you chat with me right now..

we dont rarely have much time for us..

but i know you work so hard..

so i let u be happy with your crew..

GO RKS GO!..

i will be cheer up for your guys..

even i know i far from all of you..

and so sorry im not into you guys..

kinda a shy girl..

lol..

practically im a shy shy girl..

just give me some time..

hehehee..

GO ROKUSTEP CREW! ppeeewwwiiittt! 

YEAAAAHHH!!

toodles..

26 dairy

you don't have time for yourself..

im just giving you time to relax..

you always think about training..

your competition next year..

about your family and how to spend time with them..

you have to find your free time just to please me..

please, just get some rest for this month..

you need it so much..

next year we'll be able to goin out again..

im sorry..i broke your heart..

im sorry i dont realize that you hurt so much..

im sorry that you sick with my attitude..

im sorry coz i let you down..

im sorry that you meet me..

im sorry for letting you go..

be with you is the most precious time for me..

im so sorry that i blow it away..

25 dairy

i miss you!

i do..

every second

every minute

every hour

every day

and i love you!

24 dairy..

no words can describe..

only a picture will show you how much you are means for me..

23 dairy

missing you and im hurt inside.

even we are not in a fight..

it's still hurt..

boo?

i miss you..

you should probably just text me once a while..

it will be nice..

im sorry..

i know how bad you are doing right now..

with your family and your crew

your comp also..

sorry for burden you more..

there are many reason why am i doing this..

i just wanna be strong just like you..

i wanna let you go jut for a while..

i dont want to be so selfish..

just be by ur family and your crew...

im sure can be together after im back to malacca..

i hope so..

sorry

22 dairy

no texting..

no call..

no nothing..

im still missing you

im not so strong..

im not like you...

even you are not totally 100% strong.

but im pretty sure that you can handle it..

and im not like you..

im all alone..

im no strong enough..

21 dairy!

its already 2 december

so what the deal anywhere..

ohh ya..

hehehe...

just joking..

im so happy!

100th anniversary this 9 december..

cant wait for it..

3 months..

im happy with you!..

even sometimes we got into small fight....

i know you got training..

and you are buzy..

you dont have time for me..

its okay..

i get it..

but sometimes 

im so jealous with everyone around me..

why do i have to watch other people texting with their love one..

but not me..

happy with you!