54 dairy

hurm...apakah yang brlaku padaku?

gahaha..

start ayat dah merepek..

i think what you done  is wrong..

berat pulak kepala nie..

hurmm...

keep thinking what u being doing here...

u not making it right...

u just making it worse..

i need time alone...

i need to focus on my final work..

please, jgan ggu kawan2 i...

im so sorry for causing u a lots of trouble by coming here..

i know that u being hoping to see me..

but im not ready for that...

im trying to give us a space..

so we can think more clearly what we have now..

i dont want to do stupid decision anymore..

im not saying that being with u is stupid..

i think we move to quickly in our relationship...

so i better make it slower now...

that's is the reason why i didnt wanna see u..

but u making me sick of myself..

if i pretending to be happy when u came here..

just let me finish my work..

i lt me settle my mind..

i dont what to think about us right now..

i wanna focus on my work..

i need to be good for my parents now..

i think i'll undrstand once u read this..

im so sorry!..i love you so much but i need time for my own good..

and for ur own good as well..

53 dairy

hurm...i should talk bout it in public..

but i need to..

i just dont get it...

why boys can do anything but girls dont!

aarrgghhh

its bullshit man!

what the fuck!

im trying to be as good as i am to u...

and i always give ur the chance to  make new friends...

i wont stop u..

its ur choice...

 

why do i have to do somethg i dont like...

hhuurrgg!

52 dairy

hurm..

w being in this situation like one week now..

so whats the conclusion for this..

im not really good at couples n undrstanding and give and take...

im a sensitive person when its comes to something painful...

its like so fuckin hurt right now!

i reallly hate this situation!

i really miss him but im quit happy with not to think about it...

i really spending time with friends..

making new friends...

how wonderful is the world..

when im all alone and just be myself and be happy all the time!

but the truth is..

i miss him so much and i really need him now..

will you just come and hug me...

just foe awhile...

like the song i used to hear...

hurm..

DADALI ur song makes me wanna cry! LOL

51 dairy

do you think will we survive till we get married?

this whole part of getting know each other

really take me down...

when there's happy its also hurt..

when its full of laughter also full will tears..

how can i be a part with him..

when the world keep holding him back..

its like im taking one step forward..

but im still 2 step behind everyone in his life...

can others feel happy watching us happy together..

it is so hard to do so?

can u just be happy for us?

im not perfect..

just let me be me..

im tired of being other person than me..

the 2 years back...

its really killing me..

im not who im...

world..

please dont make me change...

im sick and tired of it...

50 dairy!

this whole month..

we are fixing our hehe

well as you know..

we being fighting about that girl..

so 

its not my prob anymore...

hehehe

kinda off..

im really axcited about him goin to be the top 12

in showdown 2011..

GRREEAAATTT!

haha..

its kinda scary actually..

my other side of brain thinking...

about how he's getting more n more popular that usual!

WHAT!

haha

its about jealousy...

how about that girl?

are she goin to tell everyone that my bf is her??

are every girl will watch showdown n fall in love with him..

how about he'll getting some texting or email or whatever..

arrgghhh!

how will i overcome this situation!

HELLPPP!

49 dairy!

hurmm.

its feeling down right now..

i really wants you..

i really wanna see you..

wanna hug u, kiss u...i really do..

i miss you so much...

i wish you know how much i miss you!

hurm...

sayang please dont be to close...

just take care boo...

FOR THE ROKUSTEPS

keep it up guys..

try ur best for the MELTDOWN..

and GOOD LUCK for the comp this saturday..

believe in yourself..

and lets HIM decide..

i bet u will be alright then..

dont be to confident about it..

just do your VERY BEST!..

GAMBATE!!

48 dairy

yup..i totally a stalker..

im stalker my friend, my enemy, my BF too!

everybody are stalking with everybody on facebook..

so what the fuck is your problem!..

this is actually my first time looking at your phone..

hell yah!...

something unexpected!..

how could you!...

are you lying to me?

are you?

do u really like that bitch!...

are u totally want me to be your wife or she!!

u messing around with wrong girl!

im not that type who will be the broken hearted anymore..

not this time...

not another time either..

you and that fucking girl can go to HELL!

47 dairy

i miss you boo!...

can you promise me something...

i know you can...

please..

i dont want to end up like them..

promise me whatever it takes to survive in our relationship..

can we talk nicely...

can we just talk instead of fighting like them...

i dont want to see it or felt that way again...

its hurt..

just talk...

no fighting...

no nothing...

just talk...

i'll learn my temper...

u just be like you are now..

dont change...

46 dairy

its getting hard when it come to girls..

hurm..

why can people see?

especially the girls!...

aduyainya pun!

cant you see clearly...

he already got girlfriend...

OMG..

why can't people thinks about that..

stop flirting with my man...

please...

arrgghhh...

are you gonna try him because he'll become famous aftr this..

please!!

i can only talk about it in blogger!...

hurm...

45 dairy

i really hope this was the end of thier story..

i barely can handle it anymore..

i know im the one who give you the green light..

but i just thinking only after u're training u'll meet her...

but...

what can i say...

okay..

enaough said about her...

btw..we're fine now...

for now..

hehehe

hopefully..

it will last...

im not praying because i wanna him to become my husband..

i just praying for those who'll become my husband...

i hope...

hurmm..

honey..

i miss you!...

44 dairy

its a long week for us..

being fighting a lots because of that girl..

can't she think anything?

hurghhh!

hurrmmm..

more talking n fighting than before.

its part of us being in relationship..

still goin on 6 month already..

how fast the time past by..

but yet..

i cant define what joke or what real things..

hurmm..

please all the ladies out there..

cant you be very specific with every guy u been out..

maybe his already got girlfriend or someone special..

put ur shoes in ours..

what do you feel..

what can you feel about it..

if you can feel it..

please just go and leave your life..

there's a guy waiting you somewhere around you...

43 dairy

sometimes people change..

they change after he or she got something...

people always change...

i know that..

but why must you change?

am i unlikely different than before?

am i too childish?

to jealous about ur job when u're always being around the hot girl?

am i?

im trying to be as sporting i am...

im trying my best...

so should you done this things for me?

cant u see?

its hurt me so badly...

i felt like im the one who stand between both of you...

girls all around the world..

would you please step aside from him...

keep u head straight...

im still his girlfriend..

please dont ruined our relationship with ur love for him...

yes u can love him..

but please dont take him from me..

thank for your consideration...

42 dairy

i trust you..

yes i do..

i really do..

ngeh..

i dont know u before..but i know u now!..

ur the best thing i ever had...

the best boyfie that i always dreams off..

u the precious person after my family la..

hahaha

u're the goodies and the cute one..

and you're my hero for the rest of my life..

keeping you in my heart just like i keep my special stuff..

hehehe

like my bubu..but i love you more...

fast like my weeee...

ur smell like my sweet aqua lily bodyshop...

ur have more knowledge then im just like my bb n my sweet greeny..

and u're so photogenic just like my cammy...

haha

thx boo!..

sure i love u more that other

41 dairy

sorry guys...

hehe..

im suppose to update this blog everyday..

but i just could manage to spend a little time for it..

this weekend was totally pack with rokustep audition n battle..

for the showdown!..

thank god they're in!..

im so glad that they get it..

thank you..

thank boo!..

to boo: it's should not be another person in our life..

but this time i'll pass..

everday,

u goin to training at pj and then  come back home to bangi..

early in the morning..

and you have to walk home..

coz no one can send you back..

hurm..

i dont like to see another girl by urside act..

but its for your on good..

so i just step back..

 

just wanna let you know..

who ever come across us..

i'll be more stronger n i wont let them get u!..

u were mine! and only mine!

im keeping my eyes on you girl!...

so keeping my eyes on you!..

watch out ur step..

two eyes!..

cross that fucking line!

u're dead!..

i means it!

40 dairy

sorry for the late update..

buzy spending my time with boo..

he's goin to be buzy next month..

hope his crew will past the audition for the showdown..

cross finger!...

spending this whole week with him!...

im so f******g miss him right now..

only couple of hours after he left...

boo i miss you..

sokay..gonna meet him this thursday...

hahahaha....

cant wait...

the next post...

our pix together!

yes!